my life the past few months

origional post September 20, 2007 - Thursday

So i decided it has been a while since i wrote a meaningful blog. so i am going to take the time to do one today. lots of things have changed since i last wrote. So last year Cameron and I got married. Which seemed like a great idea at the time. We were going to have a baby and life was nice, not great, but nice. well we decided to get married because it was the right thing to do. as time went on, i started to realize that my marriage was not what i wanted, or what i think either of us deserved. as time went on, we talked less, we shared less, we huged less. and as time went on, i found a friend who would listen more, share mmore, and hug more. It was not because of this new person that I decided that our marriage should end. I was not happy with my situation. and I can not be happy with in a relation ship if i am not happy with myself. cameron is a good person, and i am just not the one for him.

And i have started to move on in my life at this point. I have a cute little apartment in Ohio City(cleveland). me and the cat are so happy there. and I can work as many hours at work as i want with out feeling the guilt of not being home with the husband and spening time with him. This is a great time for me to figure out what really makes me happy. I want to finish school, and go do things i was not able to do before, like go spend time with family and friends that i miss so much.
Other things are comming along nicely as well. i have a good friend that keeps me company. Some people are not so for it, but as for now him and I are friends and it will be a long time before it will be anything more than that. For the simple reason, im not ready. For one I am still married to Cameron, and that is not fair to try and have something else go on. The divorce will be done soon enough and if its a good thing we should have the patients to not worrie about it and wait. Oh yea and he holds my hand..................ALOT!

Thats it for now i suppose!